"Bapak" dont cry.....
Life is such that if you are the youngest everything have to be fast.... my sis started my blog, filled up my profile, taught me how to post my first "article" and ...... "cepat la Kak Teh nak tengok ....". yeah, yeah.....
So kak teh, here goes...
When i first read Kak Teh's story on Abang.. and how he has changed becoz of the big C, i printed the article and passed it around... proud i may be, coz kak Teh has always been the one that could put everything in writing, sad i may feel coz i could still see how Abang cried when Prof Yip told him the truth, i was there, standing next to him.... I thought you could only see this "moment" in drama swasta... but one thing for sure , in drama swasta the doctor will tell u the bad news and walk away, but when Prof Yip told Abang that there is nothing much she could do to help his wife, if could see tears in her eyes, she held his arms....abang cried. Both of the them tried and failed.
So what is next, life is such... I had to be the one to tell him that he has done everything, no regrets please... it has been one and a half years of HUKM, IJN, back and forth.. morning till evening, forgo everything, golf, appointments, frens.... still she is leaving, he lost the battle. Again the big C wins.....
True, u never thought u could see Abang cry... he did and actually cried in front of me.... I still remember how tasty "belacan" is in the wee hours ..... but could still smile coz u know Abang is home. He has a strange way of announcing his arrival, usually very early in the morning. But Abang please dont cry, let me be the one to shed the tears as I'm the youngest... that should be the way... U should be the one with the big laughs, jokes and even funny or weird stories...
Father left us when I was 9, so there were only two of u who used to be there for me... bapu and you. Strangely I did once ask God why he was so "unfair" to take away my father so soon... yesterday my nephew said to me the same thing... he said "Why?"it is not fair... my mother wont be able to see my son grow up.... " and I could give him this answer:
"Fair or not " only God knows what He is doing...
Now i know, Abang.... u dont cry, "bapak dont cry"... I be there coz I'm the youngest and your only brother. U were always there for me so... "we will make her comfortable... the best we can"...
I have to be quick...for Abang
I got to be there... for Comat
Only for my "bapak".. maybe this is when or how you say "thank you" for being there all these years.
kak teh, thank you for the blog!!!
So kak teh, here goes...
When i first read Kak Teh's story on Abang.. and how he has changed becoz of the big C, i printed the article and passed it around... proud i may be, coz kak Teh has always been the one that could put everything in writing, sad i may feel coz i could still see how Abang cried when Prof Yip told him the truth, i was there, standing next to him.... I thought you could only see this "moment" in drama swasta... but one thing for sure , in drama swasta the doctor will tell u the bad news and walk away, but when Prof Yip told Abang that there is nothing much she could do to help his wife, if could see tears in her eyes, she held his arms....abang cried. Both of the them tried and failed.
So what is next, life is such... I had to be the one to tell him that he has done everything, no regrets please... it has been one and a half years of HUKM, IJN, back and forth.. morning till evening, forgo everything, golf, appointments, frens.... still she is leaving, he lost the battle. Again the big C wins.....
True, u never thought u could see Abang cry... he did and actually cried in front of me.... I still remember how tasty "belacan" is in the wee hours ..... but could still smile coz u know Abang is home. He has a strange way of announcing his arrival, usually very early in the morning. But Abang please dont cry, let me be the one to shed the tears as I'm the youngest... that should be the way... U should be the one with the big laughs, jokes and even funny or weird stories...
Father left us when I was 9, so there were only two of u who used to be there for me... bapu and you. Strangely I did once ask God why he was so "unfair" to take away my father so soon... yesterday my nephew said to me the same thing... he said "Why?"it is not fair... my mother wont be able to see my son grow up.... " and I could give him this answer:
"Fair or not " only God knows what He is doing...
Now i know, Abang.... u dont cry, "bapak dont cry"... I be there coz I'm the youngest and your only brother. U were always there for me so... "we will make her comfortable... the best we can"...
I have to be quick...for Abang
I got to be there... for Comat
Only for my "bapak".. maybe this is when or how you say "thank you" for being there all these years.
kak teh, thank you for the blog!!!
posted by De'Kapai at 10:47 PM
5 Comments:
"Bapak dont cry" but at 06:37 london time, kak teh cried. Be there for Abang. I am there as well. Whisper to Kak Piah, I love her too.
I like reading your blog. Would hope to be able to read more.
salam adik kepada kak teh. i just told kak teh that sometimes, one just dont know the right thing to say, especially in this kind of situations. my prayers go to your sick SIL and all of your family. may allah bless you all and give you patience untuk meniti hari hari. inshaallah.
wassalam
Welcome to the blogging world! Good writing seems to run the family. Keep it up.
We've all done what we can, by being there or in prayers. As you say, Allah knows best, we must accept with ridha. Goodbye Kak Piah, may Allah rest you in Jannah. Condolences to Abang and family.
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